What is in a change?
What?
Why?
I do not know much about much these days, but for some reason I wish to change. Or more precisely, wish for a change. That change began with a new title for my blog. Why? I am not sure. Perhaps, I am becoming more muchier than I once was, and that my love for Alice will still be around, but I do need to grow up into an adult. To some people, living on their own, finding a new place to live may not be a big deal to them; to me it is. A new job, a new apartment, everything is new. A change. I have never had to pay for bills, bar a phone bill. I have never had to depend solely upon myself. Yes I am independent, but that is different. I now have become an adult. I no longer have the opportunity to act like a brat within reason. I have to be responsible.
Is that the change I wish for? No not really.
I'm not particularly sure what change I want. All I know is that the upcoming academic year will either make me or break me. I hope it is the former, I have no back up plan to rely on if my world falls down around me.
The restless pace of a traveler's heart meets a supernatural force. Or simply... The life and beginnings of a small town teacher.
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Showing posts with label alice in wonderland. Show all posts
Showing posts with label alice in wonderland. Show all posts
Sunday, 7 June 2015
Monday, 2 June 2014
Write like no-one's watching...
Contrariwise…if it was so, it might be; and if it were so,
it would be but as it isn’t, it ain’t. That’s logic.
In the ten months I have been here in the UAE, I have spent
the majority of my Saturday evenings writing. Sometimes it is a simple ramble
like this, other perhaps inspired by the weekly events that have occurred. Some
mould themselves around the people I meet. Some may be created from a deep
emotion stirred within me. They all have something in common; they are my
masterpiece. I may not as poetic as
Shakespeare or dramatic as Tolkien, but to me they are my prized possessions.
My life written on paper; they are words scrambled across the field of lines. Occasionally they make sense, the rest evolve
as an organised mess.
It is not a case of how I write, the techniques used, or the
formation of the words – it is what I write that matters most. I write what I
know. To me, nobody is a literary genius;
anyone can write. In the same breathe no-one can criticise the way you express
yourself. There is no right or wrong.
Every word you put into a sentence is unique. It is your snowflake. There
may be a moment in time were someone will be jealous or angry at your words, but
you will learn to deal with that.
Whether it is the pen scratching paper or your fingers
pressing the keys, the letters appear creating words that shape the sentences
to come. They shine for you. They show your strengths, your weaknesses – but more
importantly – your story. Your story is your own. No-one can speak any
different.
This is my story. I write because I can. It’s my form of
escapism (besides reading that is). I write whatever forms into my head. I
remember someone asking me back in December “Why do you write so much?”
Well if I were not to write, all the thoughts in my head have nowhere to go. They need to be released in to the physical world. Scratch that; I would actually end up insane (if that were possible since I fell down the rabbit-hole a long time ago).
Well if I were not to write, all the thoughts in my head have nowhere to go. They need to be released in to the physical world. Scratch that; I would actually end up insane (if that were possible since I fell down the rabbit-hole a long time ago).
Speaking of rabbit-holes, I think some people tonight have
fell down them and have yet to escape. Everyone seems to be wilder than usual.
With that in mind, this post shall take its’ leave and bid you farewell.
The further off from England the
nearer is to France –
Then turn not pale, beloved snail
but come and join the dance.
Will
you, wo’n’t you, will you, w’o’nt, will you join the dance?
Will
you, wo’n’t you, will you, w’o’nt, wont you join the dance?
Wednesday, 14 December 2011
And I'm feeling blue....
And yellow and pink and red and green....
I got told today that my December and January pay is to be high. Now I'm doing a sensible thing this time by picking out a car (when I hopefully pass my test), however, I am also planning on getting a tattoo. I know the theme of my tattoo is to be of Alice in Wonderland but I'm not sure of what I'm actually getting though it will include the death of my wonderful aunty Gillian. My arm was my first choice but the surface area is a bit small. And I've finally decided on getting on my calf :) That shall be interesting.
On another note, I have been dreaming non-stop about this one guy who I know....not mentioning any names... for the past two weeks. He appears in every single dream and its starting to annoy me. Yes dream mind, I have taken a slight interest in him, but you do not need to remind me every bloody night! Jeeez....
Also I have officially done my back in again! Work has actually become a nightmare,my physiotherapist has bruised my back, and my parents think I'm a hypochondriac. I'm sorry but it hurts like a motherf*cker. Any movement at all now is quite painful, though I can now move my arms without any complaints. Apparently it hurst cause im using muscles I've never used before. Whatever.
Anyway I am off to bed now as I have a very long day ahead of me.
Night night
Sweet Dreams
x
I got told today that my December and January pay is to be high. Now I'm doing a sensible thing this time by picking out a car (when I hopefully pass my test), however, I am also planning on getting a tattoo. I know the theme of my tattoo is to be of Alice in Wonderland but I'm not sure of what I'm actually getting though it will include the death of my wonderful aunty Gillian. My arm was my first choice but the surface area is a bit small. And I've finally decided on getting on my calf :) That shall be interesting.
On another note, I have been dreaming non-stop about this one guy who I know....not mentioning any names... for the past two weeks. He appears in every single dream and its starting to annoy me. Yes dream mind, I have taken a slight interest in him, but you do not need to remind me every bloody night! Jeeez....
Also I have officially done my back in again! Work has actually become a nightmare,my physiotherapist has bruised my back, and my parents think I'm a hypochondriac. I'm sorry but it hurts like a motherf*cker. Any movement at all now is quite painful, though I can now move my arms without any complaints. Apparently it hurst cause im using muscles I've never used before. Whatever.
Anyway I am off to bed now as I have a very long day ahead of me.
Night night
Sweet Dreams
x
Wednesday, 5 October 2011
Finally!
So after a recent lecture in Living Stream: Contemporary Irish Poetry, my on off dissertation topic has now been solidified. I am not looking at Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, Wicked, or Phantom of the Opera, I am now planning to study Mr W.B.Yeats unrequited love of Maud Gonne. I have not yet looked at which angle I will taking but to do such a powerful woman related to Irish history, is quite a honour.
The poem No Second Troy will be quite hilarious to look at; poor woman being compared to Helen of Troy. I will be quite excited to look into her life from many points of view and even create my own opinion of her. Now for the question; did she sleep with Yeats? Many say no, however I say yes.
On another note, university life is a bit strange at the moment. I am actually spending less than I did last year which is great, and I seem to be enjoying the modules choices a lot more. Hopefully my grades will reflect it. Time can only tell.
The poem No Second Troy will be quite hilarious to look at; poor woman being compared to Helen of Troy. I will be quite excited to look into her life from many points of view and even create my own opinion of her. Now for the question; did she sleep with Yeats? Many say no, however I say yes.
On another note, university life is a bit strange at the moment. I am actually spending less than I did last year which is great, and I seem to be enjoying the modules choices a lot more. Hopefully my grades will reflect it. Time can only tell.
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Thursday, 28 July 2011
Tattoos
For me a tattoo gives others an insight to what that that person is like without them having to say anything.
For example I have three meaningless flower tattoos:
Which I think say that I have a love for flowers, pretty obvious. But why flowers? They hold so many meanings. Forget-Me-Nots (the anklet) suggest everything about you is unforgettable-the compassion that shines in your eyes, the intensity you bring to everything you do-and your energy is contagious. You are leaving a very special mark on your world. The blue Lotus flower (the stomach) means wisdom, knowledge and victory over the senses.Lotus tattoos are meant to represent life, new beginnings and the possibility of people growing to change into something beautiful.
I also however have this tattoo:
The wolf. Many say it's a type of dog as wolves are vicious creatures and mine is pictured very calm. The reason. No idea except the fact that you cant judge something on how they look. Oh and recently I got asked: "Can I take you for a walk?" Definitely original!
Now for the ones that do mean something:
The first "Veritas vos Liberabit". Translation - "the truth shall set you free". Truth is a word that my dad tries to ingrain in my head all the time, that the truth is always best.
The second is in reference to the story of Thumbelina. In the first English translation of 1847 by Mary Howitt, the tale opens with a beggar woman giving a peasant's wife a barleycorn in exchange for food. Once planted, a tiny girl, Thumbelina (Tommelise), emerges from its flower. One night, Thumbelina, asleep in her walnut-shell cradle, is carried off by a toad who wants the miniature maiden as a bride for her son. With the help of friendly fish and a butterfly, Thumbelina escapes the toad and her son, and drifts on a lily pad until captured by a stag-beetle. The insect discards her when his friends reject her company. Thumbelina tries to protect herself from the elements, but when winter comes, she is in desperate straits. She is finally given shelter by an old fieldmouse and tends her dwelling in gratitude. The mouse suggests Thumbelina marry her neighbor, a mole, but Thumbelina finds repulsive the prospect of being married to such a creature. She escapes the situation by fleeing to a far land with a swallow she nursed back to health during the winter. In a sunny field of flowers, Thumbelina meets a tiny flower-fairy prince just her size and to her liking, and they wed. She receives a pair of wings to accompany her husband on his travels from flower to flower, and a new name, Maia.
Now my Thumbelina is unhappy in her flower because I believe no story has a happy ever after. Just because certain obstacles are overcome and in the past, there lie many more in the future.
And the final one: Pretty self-explanatory I think. I love my mam and dad, and without them I could not survive :)
In January 2012, my tattoo obsession took a huge turn, and thus the beginning of my Alice in Wonderland tattoo. It took three sittings but the finished product is so amazing. Now there is no meaning behind my tattoo, just simply a love for such a crazy and unique world.
I recently got new tattoos.....
There are many meanings for the origin of the Dragonfly, many with negative connotations. However the one I went for was the Asian definition; the Dragonfly lives a very short life, yet it lives its' life to the fullest. As you can see there is a letter 'G' nearby; this represents my Aunt Gillian. She was a wonderful and bubbly person, making the most of life. So as a tribute, I decided to give myself a lasting memory of someone I miss so dear.
The newest addition is this masquerade skull...
Just simply because I love The Masque of the Red Skull by Edgar Allen Poe. My favourite story of all time.
Here are my newest tattoos :) :
Oh how I love tattoos.
For example I have three meaningless flower tattoos:
Which I think say that I have a love for flowers, pretty obvious. But why flowers? They hold so many meanings. Forget-Me-Nots (the anklet) suggest everything about you is unforgettable-the compassion that shines in your eyes, the intensity you bring to everything you do-and your energy is contagious. You are leaving a very special mark on your world. The blue Lotus flower (the stomach) means wisdom, knowledge and victory over the senses.Lotus tattoos are meant to represent life, new beginnings and the possibility of people growing to change into something beautiful.
I also however have this tattoo:
The wolf. Many say it's a type of dog as wolves are vicious creatures and mine is pictured very calm. The reason. No idea except the fact that you cant judge something on how they look. Oh and recently I got asked: "Can I take you for a walk?" Definitely original!
Now for the ones that do mean something:
The first "Veritas vos Liberabit". Translation - "the truth shall set you free". Truth is a word that my dad tries to ingrain in my head all the time, that the truth is always best.
The second is in reference to the story of Thumbelina. In the first English translation of 1847 by Mary Howitt, the tale opens with a beggar woman giving a peasant's wife a barleycorn in exchange for food. Once planted, a tiny girl, Thumbelina (Tommelise), emerges from its flower. One night, Thumbelina, asleep in her walnut-shell cradle, is carried off by a toad who wants the miniature maiden as a bride for her son. With the help of friendly fish and a butterfly, Thumbelina escapes the toad and her son, and drifts on a lily pad until captured by a stag-beetle. The insect discards her when his friends reject her company. Thumbelina tries to protect herself from the elements, but when winter comes, she is in desperate straits. She is finally given shelter by an old fieldmouse and tends her dwelling in gratitude. The mouse suggests Thumbelina marry her neighbor, a mole, but Thumbelina finds repulsive the prospect of being married to such a creature. She escapes the situation by fleeing to a far land with a swallow she nursed back to health during the winter. In a sunny field of flowers, Thumbelina meets a tiny flower-fairy prince just her size and to her liking, and they wed. She receives a pair of wings to accompany her husband on his travels from flower to flower, and a new name, Maia.
Now my Thumbelina is unhappy in her flower because I believe no story has a happy ever after. Just because certain obstacles are overcome and in the past, there lie many more in the future.
And the final one: Pretty self-explanatory I think. I love my mam and dad, and without them I could not survive :)
In January 2012, my tattoo obsession took a huge turn, and thus the beginning of my Alice in Wonderland tattoo. It took three sittings but the finished product is so amazing. Now there is no meaning behind my tattoo, just simply a love for such a crazy and unique world.
I recently got new tattoos.....
There are many meanings for the origin of the Dragonfly, many with negative connotations. However the one I went for was the Asian definition; the Dragonfly lives a very short life, yet it lives its' life to the fullest. As you can see there is a letter 'G' nearby; this represents my Aunt Gillian. She was a wonderful and bubbly person, making the most of life. So as a tribute, I decided to give myself a lasting memory of someone I miss so dear.
The newest addition is this masquerade skull...
Just simply because I love The Masque of the Red Skull by Edgar Allen Poe. My favourite story of all time.
Here are my newest tattoos :) :
Oh how I love tattoos.
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